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Today I realized something that I should've realized in the beginning of this semester. Lately, I've been putting so much pressure on myself and at the same time doubting my abilities to the max. I keep thinking I'm not going to be successful. I keep telling people about how worried I am and how I feel like a failure. I know that law school has its ups and downs, but I'm just nervous. And there are the people who are so wonderful who look at me or talk to me and say that they love me no matter what and they have immense faith in me. And then there are those people who are just like "that sucks" or "oh, what do you think you did wrong" or "well, I don't know, maybe you should try a different profession." And I wish I knew about those people when I started law school. I feel it's like natural instinct for me to tell someone who is stressed out to "stop stressing! you can do it! you're amazing!" Why is it so foreign for other people to say? Don't they know what makes people happy and able to de-stress? Don't they know that saying things like "well, i don't know what to tell you" are honest, but they suck? Whatever, I just don't get it and it bothers me so much.
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[26 Nov 2004|08:17pm] |
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I feel like I am the most disorganized person that ever lived. Everything from my notes to my bedroom to my emotions. I feel like everything I want and feel is in disarray. I'm just in this current state of confusion over so many matters. I'd like to just start so fresh. When the semester ends, I really want to do just that. I want to change my way of taking notes and studying. I want to clean my room and donate stuff to the poor. I want my feelings and ideas to appear firm and cohesive. I want to be the person that other people wish they could be - or some shit like that.
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[10 Nov 2004|10:40pm] |
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So, I've gotten to thinking about friendship lately. What does friendship mean? Sounds kind of stupid, but seriously, what does it mean. Can friendship be fleeting? I mean, I still keep in touch with certain people from high school and college, but what about those people that I haven't spoken to in years. Was what I had with those people friendship? It just seems weird that there are people, identifiable people, whom I care about and shared memories with and it is 99% likely that I will never see them again. That is so disturbing. I hate the fact that some friendships might be fleeting. You meet people who make such a mark on your life and then, suddenly, it becomes so awkward to instant message them. What a sharp contrast to the days of easy talking and laughing. Sometimes I think that if my high school class were to get together - each and every member - we'd be able to recreate the same dynamic we had back in 2000. We still have the tools and energy. Yet, I know deep down that wouldn't happen. People would appear different and have different perspectives on life. Or maybe they wouldn't be. I don't know. It's just strange. Like, on NYU graduation day, I hugged people and said graduation. Was I really saying farewell to some of those people? If so, I wish someone had said to me "Be careful! This person is moving to Fiji and you will probably not see her again!" I wish I had an address book with the phone numbers of all the people I ever cared about. I hate referring to certain people as "we WERE so close." This is all babble, but I just had to say it.
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| Oscar News! |
[14 Oct 2004|04:49pm] |
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Chris Rock is going to host the Academy Awards!!! That's so cool!
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[11 Oct 2004|10:23am] |
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I just found out that Christopher Reeves died. That is SO SAD!
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[11 Oct 2004|10:18am] |
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Well, I'm not sure if anyone cares to hear my recent life history, but I'll tell it anyway.
I underwent a heart procedure/surgery/whatever you want to call it August 31st and I feel better than I think I've ever felt. A doctor at Mass. General in Boston inserted a balloon into my Mitral Valve (which was closing up) and expanding the valve which has led me to feel able to breath well for the first time in my life. I have also started law school and it's a lot of work, but very interesting and enjoyable. I hope everyone is doing well!
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[29 Aug 2004|09:15pm] |
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Well, a lot has happened lately. Guess the two biggest things are me starting law school and the fact that I have to undergo a heart procedure this Tuesday. It's hard to go into detail because each require a lot of text, but I guess it's just a very transitional and big point in my life. I miss everyone from NYU and I'm also meeting a lot of new people. I'm also kind of scared about growing up and undergoing serious things, but I have a lot of faith. I just think it's important to have that faith and stay calm and be grateful for everything you have - especially family. That's about it. xoxo
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[13 Aug 2004|02:58pm] |
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Julia Child died :(
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[12 Aug 2004|02:23pm] |
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I will never worry about the little things again.
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[03 Aug 2004|02:35pm] |
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People who have egos are annoying. Absurdly annoying.
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[29 Jul 2004|02:03pm] |
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Isn't it amazing how one song can bring back a flood of memories?
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[28 Jul 2004|04:19pm] |
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Utter boredom.
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[28 Jul 2004|11:03am] |
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First the Fantastic Four movie, then Matt Le Blanc's sitcom Joey... why does every high profile role Keri Russell auditions for go to someone else? It makes me sad :( I miss the Felicity days!
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| I have a migrane but... |
[14 Jul 2004|10:02am] |
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I definitely saw a girl on the subway this morning with a nameplate necklace that read "Felicity." So cool! I miss that show :(
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[12 Jul 2004|02:25pm] |
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Today has been one of those days where you're running around in circles and feel like complaining; however, you can't because things could be much worse. It's just the little things like law school paperwork and finding out that tickets are sold out for the broadway show I wanted to take my mom to see. I think I am having a case of the Mondays. And I hate writing livejournals like this because I sound stupid and who really cares about this fluff? Today is a day where I'd like there to be sunshine and I'd like to step outdoors and do something for the world. I'd like to take a ride down to D.C. or something and help Kerry win the presidency.
I've been wanting to buy the Felicity DVDs for season 1 and 2 for a long time. Today I went back onto Amazon and tempted myself with the prospect. It's just so much money and I know it's worth it, but I keep saying "no." How is it so easy for me to spend tons of money on the most trivial things, but when it comes to something I've really longed to buy I stay back?
I also feel like I'm bugging people with questions today.
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| EDWARDS |
[06 Jul 2004|09:22am] |
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Dear Friend,
In just a few minutes, I will announce that Senator John Edwards will join me as my running-mate on the Democratic ticket as a candidate for vice president of the United States. Teresa and I could not be more excited that John and Elizabeth Edwards will be our partners in our journey to make America stronger at home and respected in the world.
You are the heart and soul of our campaign. You've shattered records and expectations every step of the way. Every time someone said you couldn't do it, you proved them wrong. Because of your incredible grassroots energy and commitment, I wanted to make the first official announcement of my decision to you -- more than one million online supporters at johnkerry.com.
I want you to know why I'm excited about running for president with John Edwards by my side. John understands and defends the values of America. He has shown courage and conviction as a champion for middle class Americans and those struggling to reach the middle class. In the Senate, he worked to reform our intelligence, to combat bioterrorism, and keep our military strong. John reaches across party lines and speaks to the heart of America -- hope and optimism. Throughout his own campaign for President, John spoke about the great divide in this country -- the "Two Americas" -- that exists between those who are doing well today and those who are struggling to make it from day to day. And I am so proud that we're going to build one America together.
In the next 120 days and in the administration that follows, John Edwards and I will be fighting for the America we love. We'll be fighting to give the middle class a voice by providing good paying jobs and affordable health care. We'll be fighting to make America energy independent. We'll be fighting to build a strong military and lead strong alliances, so young Americans are never put in harm's way because we insisted on going it alone.
I can't tell you how proud I am to have John Edwards on my team, or how eager I am for the day this fall when he stands up for our vision and goes toe-to-toe with Dick Cheney.
This is the most important election of our lifetime, and a defining moment in our history. With you by our side every day of this campaign, John and I will lead the most spirited presidential campaign America has ever seen, and fight to lead our nation in a new and better direction.
Thank you,
John Kerry
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[05 Jul 2004|07:22pm] |
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Just bought the album "Hot Fuss" by the band The Killers. It's a really good album.
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[30 Jun 2004|12:46pm] |
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Sitting at work, sipping on my iced tea and all of a sudden I start choking. Gasping for air I get out of my seat and head towards the elevator bank where I can try to catch my breath without anyone noticing. On the way, I start choking more. Fearing death, I walk to a secretary who proceeds to try and do the heimlich. Every attorney and secretary moves into the hallway to see what's the matter. I finally catch my breath, am aware of everyone looking at me and I am fully humiliated. What a morning.
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[25 Jun 2004|02:37pm] |
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A lot of people dislike Michael Moore. A lot of people think his new documentary is too extreme. I don't know how I feel about him. I plan to see Fahrenheit 9/11 - more to be entertained than politically affected. Yet, I think the following is very interesting:
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0411646/
Turns out there is a film to be released before the 2004 presidential election that bashes on Moore's methods. I don't know if this movie will be released on a wide scale; however, it does debate Moore's claims and should make for interesting conversation!
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